December, you are finally here. The final month of 2017.
I know it will just be a short matter of time before 2018 knocks on the door and deep down I know I will be welcoming 2018 with open arms, heart and mind. As it is, I can smell them already and my plans for 2018 is carefully being shaped into place.
I was saving this entry for the longest time. I know this is perhaps the last entry for 2017. If I am lucky, I would be able to squeeze in a few more.
One of the reasons I knew that I wanted to write this entry is so that I would remember the reason I started on this personal project that I created for myself, Dear 2017.
Why did I create this?
I started 2017 with the mindset that I should set the bar for myself. Things happened in the past and I knew I needed to be positive, stay positive and fill myself as well as my surroundings with positive vibes. I planned on staying out of the negative radar, away from anything that was not giving me a peaceful night’s rest and everything along those lines throughout 2017.
How did Dear 2017 turn out?
For starters, I knew I needed my genuinely cheerful self back. I wanted to do things that I sincerely believed in and not just doing it simply for the sake of just doing it, or having that just getting it over and done with attitude. One of the main things that I did to get on that direction, was to read. I buried myself in different genres of books, articles, posting and many more during my free time. I was amazed how reading made me feel. I started browsing for reading materials and encapsulated myself with them. I felt good and was surprisingly inspired; this was something I did not expect. Somehow, I realised, reading got my mind back on the right track. That was when I noticed I started to change. Not much at first, but slowly. Not only was I being positive, my actions were different, my thoughts changed and at the same time, I was also attracting many positive vibes to come my way. I did not count on this unspoken blessing.
As time goes by, I learned to let go of the emotional baggage I invisibly carried around. I learned to not let my mind wander to whatever hurtful things that kept replaying in my mind which sometimes did bring me down. I trained myself to start doing what I enjoy and investing my time into different classes to keep the happiness going.
There can be days I would drive to my favourite bakery after I was done with work and head home to munch on with a good book, or finish up some work accompanied by my all-time favourite cup of hot chocolate. There were weekends I would be curled up in bed binge watching some romantic drama and then texting my friends to discuss the plot. There were moments I decided to make more time to meet my loved ones and spending quality time with them. It was surprisingly unexpected, in a good way.
If I have been dragging my feet to do some things and getting stuff done before, I would say I am no longer feeling such this year. Dear 2017 project was about mending and fixing myself, getting my wandering soul back on track to doing, maintaining the good vibes and achieving what I set myself up for from the very start. This project has been nothing short of an amazing ride. I learned so many things along the way, letting go, leaving unexplainable matter to the Almighty, putting my trust in Him and Him alone in getting myself back. Furthermore, I am thankful for this personal space of mine, this has become an essential part of me and I start doing more for myself.
Needless to say, as the positivity spread its beautiful wings, ideas on my upcoming personal project for 2018 started brewing. Somehow, this idea got me excited and I know I going to be pushing my limits for this. I hope this project would give birth to a burst of positivity that would rub off on others who were once in my shoes and are looking for windows of hope to create and inspire. But I shall not reveal too much on this for now.
For whatever days that is left for 2017, I plan on enjoying it the best way possible.
Dear 2017, you have been amazing. I am so glad I have this entry that would constantly allow me to look back and inspire my future self to always keep moving forward and always create wonders.
So 2018, I am ready for you, hello!
naimefied look:
hijab: The World Map dUCk scarf
top: Olloum
pants: Olloum
shoes: Manolo Blahnik
photos by: Alfresco Express
